Monday, March 14, 2011

Ahem.

I've started like ten posts.

It's not that I have nothing to post, it's that I have so much personal stuff that I don't need to post.

That I need to take to God and pray about instead of overanalyzing.

This is my season of prayer.

On a sidenote:  I got to be "in on" of my besties engagements.  Loved that!  Also, I'm going to the other side of the world in a month.  I'm processing so many feelings about this trip that it is at times, completely overwhelming.

I'm reminding myself that I AM good enough, contrary to the voice on the other end of the voice whose incinuating tone says otherwise.  I'm reminding myself that I am surrounded by people who love me for me, and if ___ can't, then I don't need ___ in my life.  And this time, I will walk away with a clean break.  I'm remembering that you don't need or get closure.  I've been okay without it before and I'll manage again.  I'm reminded that I'm in such a healthy place (in ways that I can't necessarily articulate) that y'all would be as shocked as I am.

Dear Lord, I'm not sure why I fought getting here so much, but I'm glad I am, and I'm thankful that you nearly forced me in!

I hope you all are well.  I pray for those of you that I've conversed with (in one way, shape, or form) daily.  You are in my deepest thoughts and prayers that your lives are richly blessed!!

And one of these days, I'm going to get around to writing a coherent posts and tell you what in the Hoo-Hah is going on.

all my love,
xoxo,
Jenn.

1 comment:

Mimi said...

What a great realization post.

Hugs & love,
Mimi