Monday, October 30, 2006


Happy Pre-Halloween.

Random things:

1) I have recently begun to feel my age instead of feeling like a 13-year old girl trapped in a woman's body.
2) I keep buying cards for my sweetheart, although I'm not sure who he is.
3) I have developed a love for snail mail. It's an expensive habit, but I pray that people know that I really do care.
4) I love my family. I got so excited yesterday at the premise that God is going to give me someone to share them with. I just didn't know what to do with myself.
5) I told my grandfather yesterday that I was going to put sunless tanner on his head. My grandmother was not impressed.
6) I am a vibrant mixture of my mom's, aunt's, and grandmother's personalities.
7) I have been a in really good mood this last week.

That's all. Maybe it's weird to share, but... oh well.

Friday, October 27, 2006


I am going to purchase wood for an ark because I don't believe it's ever going to stop raining.

This weather compells me to want to stay in bed.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006


I just feel like blogging a lot today. Now assuredly as I type this – I will draw a blank and this will probably wind up short, but I still have a desire.

I am still loving the Beth Moore bible study on Daniel. Each day I am challenged by something, and it just excites me. I am not sharing all this to sound conceited, but I was raised by a father who as early as I can remember, had me sit in his office and listen to sermons. When you are indoctrinated like that at the age of 3 or 4, especially from my father, then there are times when you get things that others don’t get. After having received my fifth email, I believe that I am one of maybe two who got what Beth was trying to speak about last night, but … I so want to explain it to others. Anyway… I have been so hungry to share this bible study with everyone I come in contact with – b/c there’s so much that is relevant to right now, to today. We must not assimilate! This coming from me sounds hypocritical no less, but I believe that God can and will help us de-assimilate, and change the world. I am aware that our ‘Babylon’ isn’t going anywhere, and will in fact get worse, but I still need to live with integrity. God still wants us to live like Daniel, and/or be whatever God wants us to be. Regardless, I love the study, and am proselyting like a wild woman.

“Mission is not the ultimate goal of the church. Worship is.” John Piper.

See… now I have a blank. Well, I finally figured out how to make my links work properly. Sorry that took so long!

“Urgent prayer requires Urgent Praise!”

I am still learning things. I was reminded powerfully this weekend that, sometimes God calms His child, and not the storm. The storm must rage. But God is still God of the storm. Mostly importantly, He’s still the God of me, and calms me, and He hears me, and knowing that still blows my mind. I’m so imperfect, and messed up at times, and fallible, and thousands of other things… and yet He loves me anyway, and has my life in His control. Wow. Just Wow.

“Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive and your joy will be complete!” John 16:24


Tuesday, October 24, 2006


I found this in my Bible study homework and thought it was too good not to share:

"If Scripture is brain food, eschatology is an energy bar on steroids." Beth Moore Daniel

Monday, October 23, 2006


Trying to keep this pretty neutral (read last post), so here goes:

Busy week of work. I finally got caught up. And I don't mean, like caught up for the month, I mean, everything that I haven't been able to do in the last year. It's a good feeling.

I spent the weekend in Atlanta with my friend M. We went to Stone Mountain to the Pumpkin Festival and had a blast. We also saw One Night with The King. I have a whole new perspective on talking through a movie. I was enlightened to the fact (last night) that I have the disturbing habit as well. I'm so sorry! :)

God is good. I'm amazed at what all God is doing, but God is moving and I love it!

Monday, October 16, 2006


I think I may take a break from blogging. I am ENTIRELY too emo lately, and it spills over into this.


Friday, October 13, 2006


I thought I screwed up my blog and was very bothered by it. I figured it out, but can I tell you the angst it caused in the mean time?

I have too many stinkin' thoughts in my head! Sometimes, I frustrate me!

I'm antsy for change in my life, although I don't even know where to start, and less than two weeks ago, I had decided that where I am at is actually really good. AARRGGHH!

I have been sharing a nugget from my Beth Moore bible study lately:

Daniel 3:27 "... and the satraps, prefects, governors and royal advisers crowded around them. They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair of their heads singed; their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them." The nugget is this -- when we go through fires and trials in our lives, God intends for us to Not smell like smoke! My house caught fire in 1986 while my parents were at General Assembly in Atlanta. I have a baby blanket that one of my aunts made, and today, 20 years later, it still smells like smoke. It's just something that, no matter how many times it's washed, just won't go away. But God never intended for us to smell like the smoke of our sin; his blood washed us white as snow (and we smell good), and no longer smell the residuals. I want to grow in the Lord so that I don't smell like the smoke of my old life, or sins, or sins of my family. I think I still hold on to the "smoke" of my parents divorce, and God is really dealing with me about it. I believe we hold on to smoke in our lives, but continuing to share our old testimony over and over, for example sharing Too Much Information, when we only need to share the highlights or general overview. Everytime we dredge up all that history, we bring that smoke back up. It's time to stop smelling like smoke!!!

Wednesday, October 11, 2006


Two words I do not use enough:

Extrapolate and Innocuous. I mean, seriously people, let's expand our vocabulary.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006


I am too silly for my own good. Sometimes.

And, I'm about to take Belly Dance class #2.


I deleted most of my blog from yesterday, because it was just foolish. We are told to be angry and sin not, right? I should be told to be angry and BLOG NOT. Ha ha ha.

Belly dancing is kicking my butt. This stuff is SO not easy, but definitely worth the workout. All kinds of things hurt. :)

Peace out kids!

Monday, October 9, 2006


Yesterday was NCCOG’s 100 Years Celebration. The church was pretty well packed out, and there were a lot of historically important people there too. I got a little emotional during the video presentation, mostly because I am so thankful for the spiritual heritage that I have. There is a book with the same title that is a book for one of the religion minor classes at Lee. I read it. I am thankful for Camp Creek. I am thankful for Azusa Street. I am thankful for the gentleman who spent $1.00 to have the land registered for my church. His small act has ministered to people all over the world. I hope there is a jewel in his crown in heaven for that. Today, more than ever, I am proud to be a Pentecostal. I am thankful that my family was blackballed for Jesus. Their sacrifice, and it was the greatest sacrifice, changed my life and my future forever, nearly fifty years before I was born. I am thankful for Godly examples in my life, who are unashamed and unafraid of their faith, even when I have been. I am thankful for a denomination (as wild as it is) that, even though there are faults too numerous to mention, we are still dedicated to the cause of Christ. I have learned through the mistakes of others that, the denomination is not too blame, the problem is us, and our sin. The COG ain’t perfect, but who I am to blast it? The Pot or the Kettle? I am thankful for the intercessors, prayer warriors, unwavering evangelists, and little ‘ole hanky waving ladies who prayed through tough times. They saw the miracles. They saw the wind. I am even more thankful for God’s mercy. I mean, we are all really screwed up, you know? I am more unworthy of grace and mercy, and God continues to gush it out each day, brand new, as though I deserved it. I’m glad that God is God, and I am not. I am thankful that God’s word is alive, and I only have to speak it to see that.

Tuesday, October 3, 2006

10.03.2006 - Unerasable Marks

Happy October!

This was the devotional in my inbox this morning, and I thought it both beautiful and poinient to share:

As a sign of her undying love and faithfulness, a certain celebrity permanently tattooed the name of her beloved on her arm. This act of devotion was “permanent” until she and the love of her life broke up. Then the tattoo was promptly removed and another’s name tattooed in its place. So much for everlasting love!

Unfaithfulness abounds. Selfishness defines our society. Relationships are seen as an expendable part of life. The world is littered with broken hearts and shattered relationships left in the wake of deceit and rejection.

When someone we love turns away from us, we’re left wondering how a love that seemed so true, turned into such a lie. Why didn’t we see it coming? Rejection spawns a downward spiral into grief and despair, filled with more lies that we are worthless and unlovable. Once we start believing these lies we set ourselves up for more rejection. It’s a dangerous cycle in which many find themselves.

At the depth of our pain, in the darkest moment of the night, God speaks words of truth into our hearts: “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” (Hebrews 13:5 NIV).

Though others may forget their promises to us, God will not. To make sure we know He’s serious, God made two eternally permanent marks of His faithful love. First, in Isaiah 49:16 God tells us, “See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands.”

Get that! We’re not written in a Sharpie marker, not a semi-permanent henna tattoo that washes off in a week, not even a “permanent” full color tattoo that can be removed. But God has engraved us on His palm. That’s a mark that can’t be erased.

Then, God made His second mark of faithfulness with the blood of Jesus. Ephesians 2:13, “But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.” The cross is our reminder of that love.

Though many may fall around you, you are cherished and loved by the Almighty God. Today He holds your sweet face in His hands, nail scarred hands that are engraved with your name, and reminds you that He chose you and will never leave you.

My Prayer for Today:
Heavenly Father, You are faithful and true. Thank you for never changing and for loving me with an eternal love. Help me to love others with the same type of love. Forgive my selfishness and the times I have not modeled Your love. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Monday, October 2, 2006


“Your words were found, and I ate them, and Your word was to me the joy and rejoicing of my heart, for I am called by Your name, O Lord God of hosts.” Jeremiah 15:16 NKJ

Was in NYC this weekend to work. I helped my brother clean his old apartment and get his new one together. God is merciful, and good to us when we don't deserve it. Even with furniture. Never underestimate what God will do. :)

I'm exhausted, I gained four pounds, and my legs are really sore. JM's apartment is a five story walk up with 64 stairs one way. I think I probably walked 1000 stairs this weekend, Easy. I did have fun though, and he lives in a great neighborhood.

I wanted to be very pensive yesterday on the plane, but I had no paper or pen. :( I am continually amazed at how the Lord works in our lives. A year ago, I was terrified to fly. Yesterday, I was still apprehensive, but it was very different. On the plane yesterday, I did think about the day that Jesus comes back and splits the Eastern sky. I have a whole new perspective on that now,... to know that he's going to roll back the clouds like he did the Red Sea. It's just awesome. God is just way cooler than words.

And where have I been about Stephen Baldwin? Not only did he get saved, but he pimped out some vehicle and drives around now telling people about Jesus. Wow.

Today is also my Mom's birthday. Happy Birthday Mamie!