Monday, December 13, 2010

season of 32.


Today was my 32nd birthday. (The 13th in case the posting date is off.)

I sat down earlier today to write my 32 in 32, a personal manifesto of goals for this next year and then realized it was kind of ridiculous.

31 has been a hard season of change, mostly learning to guard myself, install some privacy, not talk as much, and not tell people some things.  Yes, I said it, some things are left unsaid.  I wish I'd learned this lesson before the last week and a half so that I didn't have to continue doing damage-control, but I can't shut everyone up, and hoping is futile.  Accept, apologize when necessary, move on.

I pray that 32 is not like that.  I am amazed at the blessings God has dumped in my lap in the last few weeks.  This 31st season of loneliness has been replaced with a group of people that have instant love. My calendar has gone from "not that busy" to "I don't have a free day for the next two weeks". 

And I love it.

I have laughed at myself a lot this year.  I've talked to myself a lot too.  I've said some really dumb things.  I've tried hard to be silly, because being serious is SOOOO exhausting. 

My 32 in 32 is going to be printed and hung in my shower so that every morning, I can remind myself of what's important. 

God   Family   Friends   Career   Love.   Hope   Faith    Giving   Integrity  Privacy  Vocabulary  Travel and Style.

Here's to a fabulous 32nd season of life...

xoxo,
Me.

4 comments:

Critty said...

I am so glad He has dumped those blessings in your life. Sounds awesome.

As for the other things...some times we just live and learn.

May your 32nd year be your BEST yet!

Regina said...

It seems like you are on the right track! Lessons earned and lessons learned are a gift in themselves.

The happiest of birthdays to you!

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Jen! Hope the year is as GREAT as you are, gotta remember that God's still working on us & His light will always shine through whatever darkness is out there! It's been a trying year for so many & we just have to keep our heads looking upward. Luv ya & Merry Christmas! Connie

Mimi said...

I hope that 32 is your best year ever!

xoxo