10.13.2006

I thought I screwed up my blog and was very bothered by it. I figured it out, but can I tell you the angst it caused in the mean time?

I have too many stinkin' thoughts in my head! Sometimes, I frustrate me!

I'm antsy for change in my life, although I don't even know where to start, and less than two weeks ago, I had decided that where I am at is actually really good. AARRGGHH!

I have been sharing a nugget from my Beth Moore bible study lately:

Daniel 3:27 "... and the satraps, prefects, governors and royal advisers crowded around them. They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair of their heads singed; their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them." The nugget is this -- when we go through fires and trials in our lives, God intends for us to Not smell like smoke! My house caught fire in 1986 while my parents were at General Assembly in Atlanta. I have a baby blanket that one of my aunts made, and today, 20 years later, it still smells like smoke. It's just something that, no matter how many times it's washed, just won't go away. But God never intended for us to smell like the smoke of our sin; his blood washed us white as snow (and we smell good), and no longer smell the residuals. I want to grow in the Lord so that I don't smell like the smoke of my old life, or sins, or sins of my family. I think I still hold on to the "smoke" of my parents divorce, and God is really dealing with me about it. I believe we hold on to smoke in our lives, but continuing to share our old testimony over and over, for example sharing Too Much Information, when we only need to share the highlights or general overview. Everytime we dredge up all that history, we bring that smoke back up. It's time to stop smelling like smoke!!!