Friday, October 5, 2007

Never Crossed my mind

For several months I have been praying for something. It is tonight, in the weirdest way, that I realize God is allowing me to see the "ugly" in something because it is not for me, in spite of how I've been praying.

I can't figure out, or discern, if you will, if this is a timing/season thing, or a permanent this-is-not-for-Jennifer-Ever thing.

And in the midst of it, I find it hard NOT to be hurt. Not to be frustrated, angry, upset, and disappointed. And not in a way that I am blaming God, but definitely frustrated with myself for not listening to my intuition a few months ago..


God - 1 (well... billion in reality)
Jennifer - 0 Still.

1 comment:

Jenn said...

i don't know if this relates, but it's a quote from elizabeth elliott, and it's one of my favorites:

"If God, like a Father, denies us what we want now, it's in order to give us a far better thing. The will of God is invariably better."