I am surrounded by good guys who are OBVIOUSLY not my husband, but I fear that I am wasting time just being in their presence. Lord, is that mean? I mean, I have been praying for my husband for sixteen years Lord. And, in spite of my present frustrations, I know that you have someone who is so special for me that I won't hardly be able to stand it. I am so thankful for the man that is he is now, even in light of my not having ACTUALLY met him, but I am also thankful for the man, husband, father, best friend, and partner-in-crime that you are molding him to be. (And Lord, I mean that crime thing in a good way. You know, a comedic buddy, of sorts. And I'm trying to keep this interpeep-readable too.) But Lord, seriously, what is the deal with my guy friends? What is the deal with Christian guys anymore? I know there are good ones, I KNOW some of the good ones, but am I just running in the wrong circles? Give my guy friends some guidance, Holy Spirit. I spend most of my time with wonderful ladies who love the Lord but we are apparently so far off the radar it's not funny. And Lord, it makes me believe that we are wasting our time AND Yours. And I don't want that. I want Perfect Will, not just permissive will. You promised Abundance, Lord, and I'm holding you to that. I realize I'm imperfect, and fallable and alot of other things that aren't necessary to remind you of in this prayer, but I know that you word is THE WORD. You are true to your Covenant. If I'm messing up, then I need direction. I don't want to waste time with guys who say they are one thing, and then search for another, or spend time and invest emotions and energy in men that are clearly not meant for me. I'm gonna need your wisdom and discernment on this because frankly, I think I've been missing it.
Oh, and thank you for your mercy that you make new every day. I can't imagine what I would be without it... you know, I don't want to know what I would be without it.
I Love You with my whole heart,