Last night, I couldn't sleep. I was up until 2:00 this morning working on the computer, and after I finally got in bed, I laid there an hour before I fell asleep.
I'm starting to feel the pressure of things I've committed too. The groups, the committees, the teams, the training. It's a lot. And I'm not even mentioning the things I'm sacrificing.
But my thought last night had more to do with excellence than it did failure. I'm the worst at setting expectations that are ridiculous and unreasonable. I've had to remind myself that my goal for running is to FINISH the race. It's not about time, it's about endurance, and completing the entire task. Running the entire race. It's about focus and priorities. It's reminding myself that, when I'm at work, I need to be working, not thinking about things I need to do at home. When I'm training/running/exercising, I need to be focused on the task at hand. When I'm at home... I need to be focused on responsibilities I have at home, as well as preparation for the next day. And Rest.
It's hard to rest when your mind is going a millions miles a minute.
But I know that I have to. I can't control the situations. I can't control anybody else. For all intensive purposes, I can't control me sometimes.
It's hard to remember to do things one at a time, one step at a time, doing them with excellence. But I know that I can balance all this.
Si Se Puede!